我。。。

刚刚读完mush(joc)的blog.
她好厉害表达她的心情。。。
让每个人读了，
都会感受到。
可能是我笨，
我真的不知道要怎样表达出来。
我只好用我自己的方法。。。
表达我对你的爱，对你的关心。

可能我表达得不是很清楚，
但是，我还是希望你会感受到。
我不需要别人知道，
我是多么的爱你，地关心你。
我只需要你知道，
我有多爱你，多关心你。

我常常很在意别人的看法，
但是，
在你回来的期间，
我发现，你在我身边的时候，
我真的没有去在意任何一个人的看法。
偶尔只是跟你开玩笑。
就好比如你表姐，
其实不是在意，
只是听见你说她会嘲笑你，
你很像不是很喜欢她嘲笑你。
可能是我顾虑得太多吧！

你回去的10个小时，
真的很担心，
怕你会出事，
感谢上帝，
你还是平安到达。。。
你一定要好好读书，
累的话，就不要做工，
去睡觉就好了。
要好好照顾你自己哦！
不然，我真的不再给你做工了！

The Powerful God that i believed in ...

He once show me his power again ...
He created one miracle for me ...
Today ..
26th of February ...
He changed my parents mind ...
As i said,
my dad is so flexible ...
Maybe God leads him to a good mood ...
Then he changed his mind ...
and let me go out !!
Yeah !!
Thank God ...
And I LOVE MIRACLES GIVEN BY GOD !!
Only God can give us miracles ...
and i believe that.

My dad ...

Sometime we all feel like we are useless...
Why ??
Cos of our parents...
friends and loved one ...

I am also an useless kid...
Why say so ??
Cos of my parents...
Actually its my dad ...
My mum will respect my opinion...
but not my dad...
He has his own opinion and thats it ...
Nothing can change.

For example,
He said this shoe looks nice to me,
Then no matter how i deny it,
how i say i dont like it,
he will still buy for me ...
Maybe this is what he says that he love me ...
Buying things for me is showing that he love me...
but i dont felt so ...
He is not respecting me ...
but he always say he respects me ...

He is the king in the house ...
He says 2 nobody dare to say 1 ...
His mood is very unstable ...
cos he is a small gas person...
once people say a little bit thing about him,
he will get angry easily except my sister.
He love my sister a lot.
no matter how my sister says him,
he wont get angry easily.

He will show his anger to anyone ...
when he is angry..
eventho its not us the one who make him angry...
but he will just scold anyone ...
when he is in a good mood,
he will listen to u ...
buy this buy that ...
I dont like his mood...
i prefer good mood and not flexible mood...

Sometime he will just stick to his plan ...
and dont care bout other people...
sometime he cares too much,
until everyone not reli happy...
I dont know ...
I must listen to him ...
I dont wan to hurt my mum...
I can do nothing ...
How useless am i ...
Cant even make decision on my own ...
Such a useless kid...

不知所措。。。

说白了，
不明白？
明白了，
不了解？
了解了，
又误会？
没误会，
想避开？
你做事，
我不满。
要你改，
偏造反？
可能是，
我误会，
你没说，
谁知道？
可以不，
问意见，
讲好了，
才决定？
没开口，
问清楚，
你伤心，
我伤心。
说错了，
对不起，
做错了，
请原谅，
只望你，
会开心，
不要求，
我欢欣。
希望你，
会明白，
不望你，
会回报。
在这里，
就停笔。
我要先，
谢谢你。

说白了。。。

我把我的苦心说明白了。
希望他会明白。。。
我不是要他感激我，
只是他说到，
我只好解释给他。。。
我不希望你感激我，
我只希望，
你以后，
可以信我，
和开开心心过生活，
那我的努力就没白费了。。。