And so..

And so..
This post is again about her..
I read back my memories..
at first i smiled and laughed at myself,
my stupidity, my innocent..
but then all of the sudden,
i felt guilty, felt shame of myself...

I would have done another way,
if she was with me all the time..
We would end up with happy ending ...
A lot more ... but ...
I regretted ...
Coz I lost my confident, my strength,
to hold on to the relationship..
I should have did it better..

I know there is nothing else I can do..
Nothing else can change the fact..
The only thing i can do is ...
saying softly and silently to her:
I am sorry