Tried but Failed

The same thing happened,
by the same person ...
I tried to control ...
not to be sad or hurt ...
But it just failed everytime ...

I tried my best ...
But things just cant get through ...
Still get the same feeling ,
Same hurt , same pain ...
Maybe i will never get used to it ...
NEVER !!
maybe i can never control myself ...
NEVER !!

Just one word ...
ONE WORD !!
Why i just cant get through it ??
Why it hurts me so much ??
Why it affects my emotion ??
Why it can makes me lose control ??
Maybe it is true ...
That i m not normal at all ...