Bad guy is what I am going to become ...

I dont know whether u can get over it or not ...
but I am sure to tell you that ...
I am going to be a bad guy ...
As bad as wad I can be ...
If you hate me, please do so ...
and scold me ...
I will feel much more better ...
But I am here to tell you that ...
I am NOT going to be with you,
after you or wadeva ...
I don feel sorry for that ...
and I feel glad about that ...
Just hate me and I don mind !!
I am ready to be a bad guy and break all the promises ...
Time is the stupid thing ...
And believing in time is the most stupid thing I had done !!
From now on ...
I am going to take u off my world ...
and YOU !! Kick me off your world !!
I don need to be in ur world !!
and I don want to !!
Just get off and don let me see you again !! ...

Truth and Lie ??

Dont know why ...
The truth always comes to me ...
To avoid misunderstanding ...
I double check and sometimes even triple check the truth ...
And I get that it is for real the truth ...
I asked the question to see whether u are being honest ...
But I always get back the lie ... That is expected ...
I am not sure that you forgot or purposely tell a lie ...
The feeling is so ... indescribable ...
Why everyone likes to do this to me ??
My heart is full of holes ...

Time ...

Last time ...
I wish time will flow slower ...
but now ..
I wish time will flow faster !!
Cos ...
Time will prove everything ...
The only thing to make it clear is when the time comes ...

看来,我永远都不会懂...

那个感觉,
很像很真,
却发现,
另一种感觉,
显得更逼真.

我已经分不出真真假假了...
你总是用你的假,
来遮挡你的真,
当我发现你的真的时候,
你又否认那个是你的真.
当我看到你的假的时候,
你说那个是你的真.
我已经盲目了...
从此以后我都不会去找你的真假,
你说真,我就当真,
你说假,我就当假...
我不再挖掘真相,
就把你说的当成真相...
这不是你的错,
全都是我的错.
对不起!

为什么?

要考试了,
却没心情学书...
父母每天都在骂我,讲我...
我有压力,却就是提不起精神来.
面对着他们,我的压力越来越大...
偶尔会突然发疯,做了一些意想不到的事.

我很怕，怕我疯了！
昨天，心里被火燃烧似的，
很迟才睡得着。。。
我不管了。。。
我真的不管了。。。
为什么你不避开他们，
你却避开我？
为什么！你就甘愿让两个人不开心，
也要让那一个人开心。。。
为什么你就不能让两个人开心？
难道你不会算吗？
这不叫自私。
把我当成东西让给别人，
才叫自私！！

请你搞清楚你自己的感觉。。。
你在这样下去，我会让3个人都伤心。。。
勇敢面对，如果你以为你这样很伟大，
那你就错了。。。你很自私，没顾别人的感受。
要是你要做伟大，把你全部的钱和东西捐出去，
把自己饿死就算了。
那就是伟大的牺牲。

I understand you ... at last ...

From the day you told me ...
I couldnt understand why ...
Sacrifise a lot and get back nothing ...
But still willing to sacrifise ...

In a sudden ...
I understand ...
In a special case ...
That no one expected neither I ...
I felt this kind of feeling ...
Like I am experiencing it ...
Giving away most precious thing ...
And not to hope to get anything back in return ...
Just hope to be together with ...
And not separate for the whole life ...
even if that person does not love you ...

I looked back ...
And I really agree with ...
Love is blind ...