Lonely ~

It has been a long long time I didnt feel lonely ...
But recently ...
I met "lonely" ...
It is not good ...
I want someone else to accompany me badly but ...
There is no one else ...
There is one that I couldnt get close with ...
Coz I feel bad when we are close ...
But just cant resist it when I saw her ...
I feel bad might coz of the past ...
Caused a lot of problem just because of we are too close ...
I am so 矛盾 ... (PS: I am very noob in english)
My best friend starts to busy with his stuff ...
Nobody to chat with, nobody to go out with ...
nobody to play with, nobody to laugh together ...
Thats when I met lonely ...
I really hope someone can replace lonely coz I hate lonely ...
Can someone chat with me, go out with me, play with me, and laugh with me?
Need someone that trust me and I can trust her/him...