我。。。

刚刚读完mush(joc)的blog.
她好厉害表达她的心情。。。
让每个人读了，
都会感受到。
可能是我笨，
我真的不知道要怎样表达出来。
我只好用我自己的方法。。。
表达我对你的爱，对你的关心。

可能我表达得不是很清楚，
但是，我还是希望你会感受到。
我不需要别人知道，
我是多么的爱你，地关心你。
我只需要你知道，
我有多爱你，多关心你。

我常常很在意别人的看法，
但是，
在你回来的期间，
我发现，你在我身边的时候，
我真的没有去在意任何一个人的看法。
偶尔只是跟你开玩笑。
就好比如你表姐，
其实不是在意，
只是听见你说她会嘲笑你，
你很像不是很喜欢她嘲笑你。
可能是我顾虑得太多吧！

你回去的10个小时，
真的很担心，
怕你会出事，
感谢上帝，
你还是平安到达。。。
你一定要好好读书，
累的话，就不要做工，
去睡觉就好了。
要好好照顾你自己哦！
不然，我真的不再给你做工了！

The Powerful God that i believed in ...

He once show me his power again ...
He created one miracle for me ...
Today ..
26th of February ...
He changed my parents mind ...
As i said,
my dad is so flexible ...
Maybe God leads him to a good mood ...
Then he changed his mind ...
and let me go out !!
Yeah !!
Thank God ...
And I LOVE MIRACLES GIVEN BY GOD !!
Only God can give us miracles ...
and i believe that.

My dad ...

Sometime we all feel like we are useless...
Why ??
Cos of our parents...
friends and loved one ...

I am also an useless kid...
Why say so ??
Cos of my parents...
Actually its my dad ...
My mum will respect my opinion...
but not my dad...
He has his own opinion and thats it ...
Nothing can change.

For example,
He said this shoe looks nice to me,
Then no matter how i deny it,
how i say i dont like it,
he will still buy for me ...
Maybe this is what he says that he love me ...
Buying things for me is showing that he love me...
but i dont felt so ...
He is not respecting me ...
but he always say he respects me ...

He is the king in the house ...
He says 2 nobody dare to say 1 ...
His mood is very unstable ...
cos he is a small gas person...
once people say a little bit thing about him,
he will get angry easily except my sister.
He love my sister a lot.
no matter how my sister says him,
he wont get angry easily.

He will show his anger to anyone ...
when he is angry..
eventho its not us the one who make him angry...
but he will just scold anyone ...
when he is in a good mood,
he will listen to u ...
buy this buy that ...
I dont like his mood...
i prefer good mood and not flexible mood...

Sometime he will just stick to his plan ...
and dont care bout other people...
sometime he cares too much,
until everyone not reli happy...
I dont know ...
I must listen to him ...
I dont wan to hurt my mum...
I can do nothing ...
How useless am i ...
Cant even make decision on my own ...
Such a useless kid...

不知所措。。。

说白了，
不明白？
明白了，
不了解？
了解了，
又误会？
没误会，
想避开？
你做事，
我不满。
要你改，
偏造反？
可能是，
我误会，
你没说，
谁知道？
可以不，
问意见，
讲好了，
才决定？
没开口，
问清楚，
你伤心，
我伤心。
说错了，
对不起，
做错了，
请原谅，
只望你，
会开心，
不要求，
我欢欣。
希望你，
会明白，
不望你，
会回报。
在这里，
就停笔。
我要先，
谢谢你。

说白了。。。

我把我的苦心说明白了。
希望他会明白。。。
我不是要他感激我，
只是他说到，
我只好解释给他。。。
我不希望你感激我，
我只希望，
你以后，
可以信我，
和开开心心过生活，
那我的努力就没白费了。。。

爱情Love and friendship ...

什么是爱情?
爱是包容而不是放纵 爱是关怀而不是宠爱 爱是相互交融而不是单相思 爱是百味而不全是甜蜜...

真正的爱情并不一定是他人眼中的完美匹配
而是相爱的人彼此心灵的相互契合
是为了让对方生活得更好而默默奉献
这份爱不仅温润着他们自己，也同样温润着那些世俗的心
真正的爱情，是在能爱的时候，懂得珍惜
真正的爱情，是在无法爱的时候，懂得放手
因为，放手才是拥有了一切…
请在珍惜的时候,好好去爱
在放手的时候,好好祝福…

1. Love can be termed as a sacrifice; friendship can be termed as a trust.

2. One can have many friends, but a person can only have one person to love.

3. An individual can get hurt if his loved one is pained or hurt. This attachment may not be seen in friendship.

4. There is no chance that one will lie awake and think of his friends for a whole night, but lovers will have sleepless nights, and dream about their lovers. The lovers even sleep and wake up with the thoughts of his or her lover.

5. In regards to love, some physical element is also involved between individuals. On the other hand, there is no such physical element involved in friendship.

我的性格。。。

我在别人的部落各找到了一个心理测验，就随便去玩玩，结果，我是一个呜呜男。 ：）

呜呜男
性格：永远乐观的自我陶醉型
　　[呜呜]型的男人会依循直觉式的意念或印象行事。率直而天真，简直就是表里一致的老实人。那直率的个性，通常会赢得旁人的好感。
　　由于总是正面思考，即时失败，当事人大多也不觉得那是失败，因此不会闷闷不乐，很快便能转换心情。虽说如果感觉对了，即专心一意的勇往直前，但由于[呜呜]型 的男人偶尔会展露左脑的逻辑思考能力，因此为使他的行为有个正当理由，会用理论作为武装。只不过，那结论原本即是由合理的理论导出，灵机一动脱口而出，很 容易被人找到破绽，一旦有人冷静的将他戳破，他便会如连珠炮般的说出一对意义不明的话，或是千篇一律的辩词，以图混淆视听。
　　[呜呜]男的兴趣始终如一，对于喜欢的事物会彻底投入,并不懈怠的钻研,因此往往不知不觉就成为该领域中的第一人。反过来说，他对于没有兴趣的食物漠不关心，很容易让人一眼就看穿。
　　正在兴头上时，[呜呜]男是炒热现场的最佳气氛制造者；反之，便像空转的机器，让四周的气氛跌至谷底。即使如此，本人却常常不以为然，是个乐天、幸福的人。周遭朋友如果了解他是这一类型人的话，应该会相处的十分愉快。

面子。。。

面子。。。
我常常讲别人，
为什么就是死要脸？
但是，
我自己呢？

我一开始以为，
我不会在意别人的看法，
别人的眼光。
但是，
我错了。

到了今天，
我才知道，
原来我自己也是死要脸。
很在意别人的看法，
别人的想法，眼光。
我真的很没用。

对不起！

Mood ...

What is mood ??
I dont know ...
Mood is what you feel ...
Me ??
I feel nothing ...

Dont you ever feel happy ?
Yes, but too often i am just acting.
Then now, i dont know what is the meaning of happy.

Dont you ever feel sad ?
Yes, the time my tears drop down,
then i am sad for sure.
If there is no tears,
doesnt mean i am not sad too ...

Dont you ever feel angry ?
Yes, i know what is angry.
Cos i seldom act angry.
I wants to try not to angry at people.
But when it comes to night time ...
Haiz ...

So,
Mood is the feeling.
Of what we feel ...
Say it out, dont hide it...
U will become like me one day...
If u hide ur feelings ...
Dont know what is ur mood anymore ...
I am trying to tell other people my mood now ...
Try to show on my face ...
Hope that i can find back ...
MY REAL MOOD !!!

Love ...

The thing that i know now ....
and the thing that i only care now ...
is to love her ...
with all of my heart ...
nothing else ...

Went to Spring yesterday ...
With My laopo , Yin, primary sch classmate ...
went to sing K at Kbox ...
again ...

I held my laopo hand ...
In the kbox room ...
Just like what we did last time ...
its the 1st time... 5th of February ...
also in Kbox ...

After kbox ,
We went to eat ...
at FoodBazaar ...
I ate sugarbun's meal ...
Then, we wondered around the Spring...
My dad phoned me and asked me to go find him ...
He need my opinion to choose my new bedsheet ...
So, i ask my laopo go back with yin ...
Then i will fetch her back from yin's house ...

So, they went to Da Lai ...
Cos yin's mum wanted to eat ...
Then i met them at Da Lai ...
Yin's mum went shopping a while at Da Lai ...
Then they wanted to go other place buy shoe for Yin's bro...
So, my laopo and i didnt go to yin's house ...
We went to have 1 night tour around ...
kuching ...
Wasted one day petrol ... But Worth ...
I sent my laopo back ...
its around 9:30 ...
So i went back home ...
reached home bout 10:00 ...
ITS REALLY FAR !!!

But nvm ...
I dont think i have the chance to send her back anymore ...
cos she said that is far ...
but i hope that i still got the chance ...

Nothing much ...
We didnt did anything in the car ...
Only held hand ...
and i used 1 hand to drive ....
Shhhh !! Dont say out so loud ...
You will see my head and body at different place...
if my dad knew it ...
That's all for yesterday ...

My feeling, My heart ...

My feelings ...
All jumbled up ...
When i saw her ,
I love her ...
When i know she like other ppl,
I am sad ...
When i saw him,
I dont dare to stare at him ...
When i talked to him,
I felt nervous ...

4 different feelings ...
I dont know which is which ...
Confusing ...

I am making myself suffer ...
Helping 2 person ...
That i dont know which shud i help ...
1 pull me go that way,
1 pull me go this way...
Not pulling my hand ...
Pulling my heart ...
Almost tear my heart ...
I wants to end this ...
But i cant ...
Time will do this for me ...
Decide who should i help ...
I will try my best,
To help u first ...
Then her ...
U don have a high chance ...
I think there is only 20% of success ...
But i will still try ...
Sorry if i cant help it ...
U'll hate me ...
But ...
U are always my best friend ... =)

Tml stuff and Damai stuff ...

Tomolo,
we are going to spring ...
Do wad ?
Actually is buy stuff for damai de ...
but they say got many time wor ...
don wan rot at home ...
so got many programs come in ...
like watching movie at mbo ,
hanging around at mph,
singing in kbox ...
all sorts of things ...

I am going too...
My class finish around 11:30,
I will go home pick my sis to school ,
then stay at school till 1:30 ...
cos wanna join in the ISCF ...
so might go late a bit ...

Damai ...
My dad heard that i wanna go damai,
he want to follow also...
he is always like dat ...
hate his attitude ...
never believe people and like to boom ppl when he no mood.
I am sure he wants to spy us ...
WTH !!
but i dont care ,
he even want to stay overnight ...
i said ok ... cos if not he wont let me go ...
HE IS VERY DISTURBING !!!

So, not only all my friends are going,(except some)
my whole family also going ...
Haiz ... Hope they wont disturb us ...
especially my dad ...

Thats all,
Tml will not on so early ...
maybe on late night ...
busy weekends ...
Haha ... but enjoyable ...
Good nite !

Forget ....

As u guys know,
I am a forgetful person.
But i will never forget 3 things,
Family, Friends and Lover ...

Today,
Math lecturer gave us a lot of work to do again.
Although i was a bit slow at first,
compare to howe,
but when the questions start to be difficult,
i catched up ...
He is not very good in calculating, i guess.
But he seems like doesnt reli wanna ask me to teach him.
Most of the time,
i saw him stop writing then i will become kepo ... XD ...
Teach him this and that.
But But but ...
U also know lah ...
When i start to teach people i start to become stupid.
However, i still like to teach people ...
The feeling of getting things done is so happy.
Like cleaning up my house, getting my homework done ...
and so on ... even helping my friend done his/her homework...
there's a kind of happiness in me ...

Today math is not that hard ,
but howe dont reli like that chapter .
Guess wad ? Its differentiation !!
If u remember, i mentioned before,
I cannot differentiate happy and sad anymore...
i posted in fb ...
but luckily i still can differentiate numbers and unknowns ....
Wakakaka ... Sorry if it made u feel that i am proud of myself...

Today Bio lecturer dono why become serious ki ...
everyday lengang-lengang (not serious and play play) ...
but today become serious and pretend to be firm ...
but after a while,
our naughty student still managed to melt her,
make her smile and start to be not serious again ...
LoLzz ...

Oh ya, chemistry lecturer ...
everyday give homework,
but dont let us do at there ...
want us go back home do ...
WAD DE !!
I love math ... cos he let us do at there ...
and he can be free , walk here and there ....

OH NO !!
Mentioned my chemis lecturer,
thought of my lab report ,
havent do !!
Gtg do now ...
Post something else next time...

P/S: If u miss me, sms me lor ... XD ...